Yesterday we were supposed to leave for Addis Ababa, Ethiopia. We were supposed to meet our little lady tomorrow for the first time. We were supposed to hold her and kiss her and go to court to become her guardians this week. This was the week where things were to become official and she would officially be ours. This week has not been that way. This week is not going to be that week that I hold my sweet daughter and smell her hair and feel her skin. This is a hard week. It is hard to keep your chin up when you have invested so much of your self into someone or something for 10 months just to be handed more disappointment and more frustration, more changes and more delays. But in this darkness of unknowns and disappointment, I have decided....
MY CHIN UP!
I know my God is good and I know my God is sovereign. I know he is working on the other side of this. He is pulling out things that I cannot see but I can feel and experience. I know that God is for this adoption. He has called us to care for the orphans (James 1:27) and be fathers and mothers to the fatherless and motherless. This is his heart. This is his character and I know he didn't bring us here to forsake us or abandon us in this. He is here with us in this and he is carrying me and I will choose to lift my CHIN UP.
I am so thankful for the friends God has brought me. I have a particular friend who cries with me, pleads with me, begs with and believes with me. She is my Aaron and holds my arms up when I cannot. And I am forever grateful to have her in my life. She has held me up when I am down and feel to weak to do this on my own. She has more faith than anyone I know. Friend you know who you are and I love you dearly! Thank you for always believing with me and walking this journey with me.