I have asked myself this a lot lately.
Why do I blog?
Its been hard lately. Hard to manage my time. Hard to get my exact thoughts out of my head. Hard to feel inspired. Hard to be real, raw and vulnerable. Its just been hard.
Sometimes I think it would be so much easier to just stop and quit. I tend to be the kind of person that quits things when things get too tough or when I feel overwhelmed by something. Its easier to just pull the plug sometimes.
But then I remember what I have stored up in this place. I have memories, I have a documentation of my thoughts during our adoption of Emerson, I have friendships with women from all over the country, I have a voice and I have a creative outlet that I love.
I started my blog in 2007 as a way to document my kids and their milestones. When I go back to 2008 I find photos like this.
Its hard sometimes to remember that my boys were once so tiny.
When I go back to 2009 I find photos like this.
When I go back to 2010, when our life began to take a pivotal turn, I find posts like these.
End of an Era and Beginning of New Things
Remodeling of a Heart
Open My Eyes
Or how about that time my husband and best friend surprised me for my birthday with a Surprise Party?
When I back to 2011, my heart stings with the memory of our adoption pains and it swells with emotion when I go back and read how I felt when I first saw her face and how I felt when we traveled to Ethiopia to meet her for the very first time.
Another Day My Heart Stood Still
Like a Dream
In 2012 we documented bringing Emme home, our adventures with Lice, my journey with trying to fast from all beverages except water, a stirring heart, a mission trip to Ethiopia, rough moments in parenting and so many more moments.
In 2013 I find moments where we met our daughters mom, and when I bravely said yes to speaking at a conference.
Because I blogged I have these memories. I know how I felt when I was potty training, adopting, making things, combing out lice and celebrating people around me. I will always cherish those written words.
So today, I am again asking myself...
Why do I blog?
Well, this above is why I blog and these three kids are the reasons I will continue to blog and write. So that one day they too can look back and read bits of my story. God writes a story through our lives everyday. I believe we are called to live on purpose and live to glorify him in all that we do and for me sometimes that means writing. I want to be able to look back in 10 years and read what was happening in 2009, 2012 and 2019. I want my kids to be able to go back a read what was happening around them, to them and through them. We all have a story to tell and this is where I try to tell ours.
I just needed to remind myself of this today.